About six months ago, the Final of Xfactor UK tuned in across the world on televison. Through more than 10 weeks we followed several different blokes, girls, men and women sing their hearts out. Everyone with a hope, a belief that shows sometimes we ALL have to let loose of restraint and make a go for it. Ive been watching these shows and the likes of it. Xfactor, “XXXXX”s Got Talent and American Idol. Every season my hope is that there is one of the many contestants the show chooses to follow, reminds me of myself. The relation is stronger, the pleasure of watching them move forward in these competitions, makes it more than just “another tv show” to follow. THAT is my reason to watch it.

When the shows started, we had all the usual weirdos, those wo had NO confidence at all, no offence Matt , and then those who had so much half of the attendants could’ve stayed home. Annoying. Matt caought my eye from the beginning. He had his struggles like we all have in each our own way. Matt knew he had to do something drastic to cope with the everyday life he obviously hated. Performing was his escape from dissapointment, sorrow and general irritation of staying in the same lane day in and day out. Something Ive tried as well. My pain was not being a painter, mine was 100% the lack of confidence. But at the same time at a very young age, i knew what i wanted to do differently ONCE i had my confidence – and how that would turn out, sort of. Problem was, i couldn’t seem to figure out where the confidence had to come from. Through my years of elementary school i was bullied from time to time, nothing depressing just … ahh come on guy? yet again? … in that way. At the 10th grade my subject grades rose from month to month – i was relaxed with myself. I sort of found a comfort in knowing i wasn’t too popular with the girls, so couldn’t be arsed to try and make an effort, which gave me really special focus on the studies, and my confidence started gaining. Experiences confirming that i was on the right track boosted it again and again and again.

I jumped out of a plain in 5Kms height, first time i did so, Alone by the way – was an insane experience, super frightning and yet incredibly exhilarating at the same time.
That day or week, sort of set a marker on me and my life. Do you know what? If i can manage really well in school, jump out of plane completely on my own … i certainly must have gods, plus my head is in the right place? … now its only the look i need – and I have all the reason in the world to be super confident about myself. And then in highschool, or college at we could call it – it made a drastic change. Since the age of 5 I had worn glasses, and felt geeky at times not even being an actual geek. Even though i turned out being fascinated by computer games afterall – well regardless, now at the time of my college years i dropped glasses, got contacts, dyed my hair from extremely blond, to completely black

- Making a statement, Im a changed man – not a new person, but a changed man. I still have the same opinions, the same friends – im still super friendly and very openminded and comforting as a person – but im now in possesion of a great deal of confidence. Ever since, Ive been able to find comfort in whatever situation I might be in, of course some are more pleasant than others, naturally, but I’d like to think of myself as an awful nice guy, good with girls – Ive really found a keeper – this girl is swedish and we compliment each other in a mezmorizing way, and i love her.

My relation to Matt, Is therefore pretty obvious, I think, because Matt have had a struggle of is own. So to see the distress, and the will power to get rid of that – is such a familiar feeling to me, that i relate extremely well to his emotions. So Matt I hope you see this some day, after all it is my intention to show this post to you on your facebook page – and hopefully get a comment from you, would love that.

So to say i fancy this guy, would be to put it mildly. All the love and respect in the world Matt – Ill keep following you on your many pages for us fans to check in to.

Love and wishful thoughts from me!

Jeppe BM
Copenhagen, Denmark.